Sometimes when I am tired of being the mad hatter, and would rather be a voice than a hearer, my favourite witch is willing to trade hats with me. ❤ my wife.

When i don’t want to hear someone I can walk away or cover my ears. But when it is certain voices, i can do neither. They are bound to me. I am bound by them.

Heart Attack

When I feel very psychotic I find going to work, or doing anything really, very challenging. I am embarrassed by this and feel guilty, but feel like I am going to explode. I fantasize heavily about suicide at least once every five minutes. On these days I wish I would have a heart attack because a heart attack is a legitimate time out. Psychosis time outs, like missing work and losing income and upsetting my family are not legitimate. I would rather die with dignity or be struck down legitimately for awhile….